You are a pantheist.
‘God’ is the totality of everything that exists - everything and person is a manifestation of the oneness of the impersonal ‘God’
Chances are, you belong to the Hindu, Buddhist or Jain religions, or have been!influenced by the teaching of these religions through what has been dubbed the ‘New Age Movement’
Many pantheists hold to a modified form, speaking of God in personal terms, since something within the human psyche finally doesn’t sit right with the idea of a God and a hope that is impersonal. Could it be that we are created for personal significance, not an impersonal ‘oneness’?
God is personal, and we are creatures, different to Him, and made to be in relationship with Him. We know Him not by looking within, but looking outside ourselves to Jesus.
‘By faith we understand that the universe was created by the word of God, so that what is seen was not made out of things that are visible.’
(From the letter to Hebrew Christians, 11:3)
‘I am the resurrection and the life. Whoever believes in me, though they die, yet shall they live, and everyone who lives and believes in me shall never die.'
(Jesus talking to a woman whose brother had just died, in John 11:25-26)